The anticipation of a child is a feeling like no other. Being a father of 2 I am aware of the feeling and in both instances it was a myriad of emotions. The uncertainty mixed with the inevitable furtherance and progress stirred in with fear creates quite the cocktail. But I wouldn’t trade that emotion for anything. Anticipation is a great part of the journey.
This feeling of pregnancy and expectation is true in many senses of life. It’s certainly true in art and I want to make art that is pregnant. I think about when I first write the chorus of a song and I have to share it with someone. I am bursting with anticipation of sharing this newly wrestled melody. Then at every stage of songwriting; working, demoing, sharing, tracking, performance, etc… there is a new anticipation and then whenever you see someone listening to the song for the first time you get that sense of pregnant emotion again.
It is, and should be, the same with the church. We as a church should be constantly pregnant. We should be pregnant with the anticipation of what God is doing in our midst and what he is leading us to do in the future. It should be the well known cocktail of fear, uncertainty, and wild trust. I hope we are always speaking of the greatness of God, the great things he has done, and the great things he is calling us to do in the unpredictable future. And I pray that we run into his light with insane abandon trusting our heavenly Father to lead us into the unknown to be part of the rescue.
As with most things, Paul said it better than I ever could…
Romans 8:22-28 (MSG)
All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it’s not only around us; it’s within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We’re also feeling the birth pangs. 23 These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. 24 That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don’t see what is enlarging us. 25 But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy.
26 Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. 27 He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. 28 That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.